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[09 Dec 2007|09:00pm] |
So, I'm gonna try this again!! I'm so bad with updating my LJ. It was almost a year ago that I said "I'm Back!" and well..that didn't go so well! So I'm gonna give it another shot!!
Things have been pretty okay lately considering all that has happened the past few months. I dated a complete loser for a few months & that screwed me up for a bit. But I realized that he just wasn't worth the time even thinking about anymore & that helped me get over it fast. I'm sorta talking to someone new now. Well, he's not really new. He's a friend of mine & we've been off & on trying to date for about a year now. But we both kept fucking things up. Whether it was his drunken stupidty or me just being a girl. Things started out really good & I thought things would work out this time, but like every guy I choose, he has some issues he's gotta deal with first. So whatever we are doing is taking its sweet time getting of the runway...Which is good becuase every time I start dating a guy things move way too fast & get all complicated. I'm just a little impatient & freaking out because I'm not used to this so I feel like theres something wrong. I don't know...we'll see how things go THIS TIME.
We just moved AGAIN. Its a bigger apartment, a lot nice. It sucks though, we had to get rid of our cats becuase they kept peeing on everything & the boys were about to kill them. I miss my kitten so bad. He was my baby!!
My mom got married, not to the guy most of my hate/anger filled LJ entries were about, but another guy. Yeah, I can see why I move fast with guys & date so many of them...I get it from my mom!! Anyways, she went through a lot of shit with this guy & my whole family hates him & doesn't even talk to my mom anymore. But she married him & he's dying from cancer. So thats all sorts of drama right there.
Its Christmas time & I feel like I'm going to be completely alone. I'm not gonna be able to go see my family for Christmas because of work. I think it may be a good thing though. Every time I go down to visit I always end up crying & even more depressed.
So thats somewhat of a little update on how things are going...I'll try to write a little something every day. If not for your entertainment, then to at least get a lot of little stuff off my chest!!
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[04 Feb 2007|07:17pm] |
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OMG! i'm back kids!! well for now anyway, its been forever since i've posted anything here. i'll be sure to post an actual update soon when i figure out whats going on in my life!
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[14 May 2006|01:46pm] |
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so its mothers day. isnt this supposed to be a happy day where you remember how wonderful your mom is? all of the good times you had growing up. how she would take care of you & make sure you were safe & told you everything would be okay?
so tell me why i dont feel that way about my mom? and how i've never felt that everything will be okay? i wish i could say that i look up to my mom, but i dont.
i want this day to be over. i want to be home with my friends.
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[17 Feb 2006|10:55pm] |
soooo...i cried when i said goodbye to everyone :(
i really didnt think that i would cry!! i hate that place!! but i love the people i worked with, they made it so much fun!!
Brenda & this old guy in the bar bought me a drink after my shift so im somewhat tipsy & EVERYTHING is super funny to me at the moment. like Kindergarten Cop is on right now & i keep saying "ITS NOT A TUMAH (tumor)!!"
oh arnold...
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[17 Feb 2006|04:31pm] |
so i've been seeing LJ icons of that Daniel (i think thats his name anyway) guy from Project Runway alllll over...so i watch the show, cause he's pretty hot yaknow? and he's gay! i was like "AHHHHHHH....oh my god...kill me nooooow" why are all of the hot guys gay? if anyone has the answer to that, let me know.
on a brighter note...tonight is my last night working as a hostess/someones bitch. i cannot wait until my shift is over!! although there are a few people there that i will miss, and i'll have to go back & visit them before i actually leave...in A LITTLE MORE THAN A WEEK! eeeeesh
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[14 Feb 2006|11:15pm] |
i think i'm getting sick.
only 2 days left working at the restaurant.
then i'm off for a week & moving back to Federal Way!!
eek! im scared & excited all at once.
ps. buy the new Matchbook Romance cd its radtastic
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[10 Feb 2006|12:17am] |
so im reading "The Heart is Deceitful Above All Things" and its this crazy ass book...but its really good.
anyway, its supposed to be kind of a biography type deal about the author JT LeRoy who is a 25 year old male who was a former prositute/drug addict....turns out it was written by a 40 year old woman who used that as a way to get her work recognized.
WHAT A JIP.
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[05 Feb 2006|11:43pm] |
what the fuck is up with people bailing on me??
im freaking out...what else is going to happen?
im already scared as fuck to move away.
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[31 Jan 2006|10:44pm] |
Every now and then I get a little easy
I let a lot of people depend on me
I never thought they would ever deceive me
Don't you know when times got rough I was standing on my own
I'll never let another get that close to me
You see I've grown a lot smarter now
Sometimes you have to choose and then you'll see
If your friend is true they'll be there with you
Through the thick and thin
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[27 Jan 2006|09:38pm] |
more lies...just what i needed
Edit// and now she's like pretty much not talking to me...or so it seems. i may be leaving earlier. and i could give a flying fuck what she has to say about it. i just wish i could bring my brother with me. i no longer care what she thinks about me leaving, but i want to know my brother is safe & taken care of. she cant take care of herself right now, how can i know that she will be taking care of him?? i need to get away. i think im gonna spend the rest of the weekend with my grandma, she makes everything better.
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[21 Jan 2006|02:47am] |
its pretty much awesome when your mom lies to you. who the fuck gets a phone call from a friend at 1:30 in the morning then goes to the "store" at 2:00am...and its now 2:47am, she's still not home.
i call bullshit!! and what the fuck is up with her locking her bedroom door when he comes over? i know he's fucking doing drugs in there. cause i know he does them & why else would she lock her door?
kjadhfiuaydfgabdkagj i cant wait til next month. then i'll have my OWN drama & stupid issues to deal with.
BUUUUT i just watched Panic! At The Disco on the Carson Daly show so im not gonna let her ruin my mood.
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[18 Jan 2006|04:20pm] |
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i got my truckstops & statelines tickets in the mail today! and the freakin envelope was OPEN! it didnt even look like they sealed it shut. :/ i would have been pissed if they fell out or someone stole them!
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[17 Jan 2006|12:23am] |
58 days & counting
and my night will be filled with like 13 hot guys & me in one room.
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[13 Jan 2006|04:03pm] |
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so im thinking im not going to be moving back to Federal Way. there are a few people i want to talk to before i really make my decision but im really leaning towards staying here.
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[12 Jan 2006|09:56pm] |
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i hate feeling like maybe i screwed things up so bad that this might be the end.
i never meant to hurt him. i thought i was doing the right thing.
i dont want to lose him.
:(
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[09 Jan 2006|10:36pm] |
i got another message from him on myspace today.
:/ gaaahhh!!
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YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i just bought my tickets to see Panic! At The Disco, Acceptance, The Academy Is... & Hellogoodbye! i thought they were sold out, but ticketswest.com is just a douche & wouldnt work for me.
akldgaoidugandgana I FINALLY GET TO SEE PANIC!
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[04 Jan 2006|09:46pm] |
ugh, so my dog just ate half a bag of chocolate covered raisins. chocolate AND raisins are both poisinous to dogs. yay. so we called the vet & they said to give her 1/2 tablespoon of hydrogen peroxide to make her throw up.
yyyyyyyyyyuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuukkkkkkkkkkkkkk
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[02 Jan 2006|11:42pm] |
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im starting to have second thoughts on a few things. im scared things arent going to turn out exactly how i want them too. but you cant expect everything to go perfectly smooth can you? nothing in my life has ever gone according to plan, i dont even think i've ever had a plan. i just hope this brings new things to me so i can stop dwelling in the past. im ready to move on in so many areas of my life.
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